I have to pause in the middle of frantically trying to get all my notes updated as blog pages while I have reasonable internet access... and remember my Mom. We lost her five years ago today, and the hole that her passing left in my heart remains a gaping one. I so desperately wish she could be with us for parts of this adventure that we are having... but it was losing her so young that helped us hold fast to our dream in the face of nay-sayers and difficulties along the way. I strive to be a better person as a tribute to who she was, and I am so thankful for the quality of the time we had.
A dear and wise friend of mine -- who has been motherless for a tragically long time now -- told me that Mom's place will remain unfilled, but that women will come in and out of my life who will take the edges off the pain and fill some of the gaps. These past months have given me so many instances... time to reconnect with Hannah and Natalie in England; weeks with Lisa and Katrin and their family in Germany, and Helen and her daughter in Spain; an unexpected gift of time with Dagmar in France as she prepares for the loss of her own mother... and the brief but heart-warming encounters with so many amazing women on the island of Culebra: Margaret, Holly, Ruth, Nancy, Inez, and others whose names I don't even know! Time spent with all of these women was a gift they didn't even realise they were giving... .
And of course it is the thought of my friends and family at home that makes the idea of going back something warm and welcoming to look forward to... and the idea of friends sprinkled across the globe that makes it a place I want to explore. Thank you, everyone, for helping to fill up the hole.
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Love you Candy.
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